Jeanne drove us on the brother’s 4 wheel Lexus to korean dinner.
It was the last day Daniel, my dearest Aussie cousin, spent in his lovely homeland, of his trip this year.
out of no where, Jeanne started with ” wanye, so… do u left any bf behind in penang island?”
i consider it for a while. and finally decide to tell them my lil secret story in Hong Kong.
Jeanne remain in deep thought, later after i ended my story
” well… at least u tried before..” while Daniel busy looking at the signboard to Changi.
promptly, after few sec of angel pass-by freeze,
Jeanne mouth out, “hn’g… Bastard.”
we look at each other and laugh eventually.
“well, i analyze the consiquences and how he behaves. But i choose to start this so-called relationship with this guy. i shall not blame anyone when it turns out bad or may be worse than i expected..” i replied.
Jeanne as a singaporean, studied in Australia, then start to point out attitudes from some of the singaporean guy she knew and comment on them.
we then ended our Guy Topic at the last piece of raw beef at dinner on Nick, the other guy friend who is a lawyer in singapore.
well, sometimes i allowed myself to be ” wrong” to keep my rational away and please my own feelings.
This time, i knew it was a big wrong, from the slap of myself, on the sec i saw his photo with a lady inside the wallet, while he is paying for our dinner.
where i told myself strictly not to repeat it again.
i knew i have to control myself to drop into it deeply. i choose to say goodbye at the last day of the year.
I lost something, at the meanwhile, i gain too.
At least, i was a volunteer teacher to unwealthy children when i was in Hong Kong 
